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♥ Wednesday, April 29, 2009

DAN SEBENARNYA...by Yuna:)

Oh bulan, enggan melayan diriku lagi
pabila,
air mata membasahi pipi
dan lagu2 di radio seolah2 memerli aku
pabila,
kau bersama yg lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
mula menular dalam diri
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah,
jatuh ke bumi..........
di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi
seperti ku bernafas dalam air
adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu kau juga merindui aku
oh
dan sebenarnya...
aku rindu......
dan sebenarnya....
dan sebenarnya....
aku tak mampu........

i cant wait for drama audition tmr..and make-up meet-up? LOL
btw,im swear i din see ya in the elevator..
onli after you went off tat is..
so wanted to acknowledge your presence!!sory:(


~
Disebalik senyuman diwajah,
tersemat segaris luka yang sekian lama memakan diri sendiri.

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hyperactive @ 6:35 PM

♥ Monday, April 27, 2009

I HATE PRACTICALS...SCREW YOU!!!!
and I LOVE those two clowns...ahaha..

laughter is the best remedy when you feel all shitty and downcast..
that's why i prefer lmao everyday no matter how suck i feel..
they're the reason for the end of a once beautiful friendship..

slowly she let go of the balloon..wishing it will never come back..
but it takes a lot of courage to set it free..
because the person who ties the balloon onto her hand means so much..
~d.m the great

btw i better start with my pract-.- #$%^*&$#
oh ya tat bloody women at the student affair office is super the unfriendly lah..
can talk nicely rite..why must you give tat tone of voice..
we're not KIDS you noe-.-

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hyperactive @ 8:18 PM

♥ Sunday, April 26, 2009

im inlove with this song and the singer..
so my type of song.. :))))
she reminds me of norah jones but malay version..



im so slow todae...i need another 8 * 10^2 m..
i have 2 mths left..if not die sey..sheeshh..

anyway..i need to sleep by 10.30 everyday..unless i haven completed any assignments yet..
and the max hours of using the lappy is just 4..
i find internet crap and waste of time therefore onli when im done with my work
then i'll find entertainment through there..
wait..im contradicting-.- here i am bloggin when i havn even finish my assignments..

on a lighter note..i was bloghopping just now out of random and tadahhh..
everyone is linked lah..i noe u, u noe her.she noes her.and she noes another her who is in STAGEARTS and the girl took a picture with another HIM..the stg girl linked to her..and she noes another fren who noes me..
complicated eh..





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hyperactive @ 8:40 PM

♥ Saturday, April 25, 2009

what a weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek..
seriously i tink cleaning the house is so much fun then goin for lecture..

no more last min work like in year1..this year is super hectic..
weekdays filled wif sch and NEW cca..my SUNDAYs are jampacked as well..
mayb soon enuf SATURDAY will be ndp:))))

Did you know that i still keep a diary?
Did you know that i feel like making a new private blog?
Did you know that i am a sentimental person?
Did you know that i keep a lot of things like candles,notebook and even sweetwrapers coz they were given by people and they hold a lot of precious memories?
Did you know that there are a lot of things you don't know about me and i don't want you to know because if you know then i don't know what else to say?


and Haz..lol can give me the link to a post u made on ur coursemate..
coz you din write the name in that recent post did you?
unless it's something that rhymes with dust..or mayb it's...


IM A MAD BITCH TODAY..
the stupid assignment on ABC prac made me screamed out loud
coz i cant understand it and the thing wont fit in my head!!!!!!


one last thing..i love my frens and i don like getting mad at them..
i like project work but i hate staying up late finishing the whole project alone
especially wen i did my part already but i had to do urs coz you guys din do it..
and im sick of people not putting in effort and asking how the project is like when FACT IS
you didn't even have the initiative to cooperate in the first place..

i gave a nicer approach but you guys take it for granted..
i even give a small share of the project to you guys..but did you do it?

if anything like this happens again in the future, trust me i'll exclude your name in the project to come..
this may sound mean but who was meaner? don't worry this isn't a threat..
im just stating this on behalf of other people out there who has this issue

but are just afraid to speak up..coz i noe im not the onli one..

anyway the past is past okay:) sory for this 'ooh so furious' post..you are forgiven...
just promise not to do it again..IF NOT.. ahaha..i love you guys..


yeah past is past coz i see brown stripes...is tat candy?

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hyperactive @ 11:56 PM

♥ Wednesday, April 22, 2009

ambassador club.. community service..
stage arts..photography club..
dikir barat..
make-up artiste..astronomy club..
hockey..percussion ensemble?


damn..percussion ensemble is part of band-.-
it isn't a cca by itself..SHIT LAH..
don't NYP have a storm group or something..?

weak uh..and i din noe hanafi was in band-.-

and i DON NOE WAT CCA TO JOIN.. [feel like joining all sey]
but most likely..ambassador club and i just signed up for DRAMA..
DEE and DRAMA..?? like seriously-.- ahaha..
it's gona be a hell of fun but audition is..s.c.a.r.y. s.h.i.t

whatever it is..I NEED TO GET A CCA THIS YEAR..

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hyperactive @ 9:00 PM

♥ Tuesday, April 21, 2009

i regret cutting my hair..reali..
and im so gona rebond my hair again in june..
i wana do something before stepping into the legal zone..
mayb rebel a bit [yeah rite], pierce my tongue or wat..
ooh yeah pierce the eyes so cannot open..tskk
-.-" kay crap..


after 4896147 weeks..atlast i see AZRI TODAE:)
he was practically knocking on the glass door of auditorium to get my attention..
lucky chloe notice..and he was elated to see me.."jumping for joy ah"
he ___me and his frens said im ___..

meet haz as well..hand her online shoes..ytd meet NORA..hee..
i want to see all the familiar faces in sch..!!
zak syazwanie nadiah xing you etc etc..


it's time to GROW UP.. and start being INDEPENDENT..


i had a talk wif zak bestie and as usual we were ranting on RANDOM stuf..
to sum it up.. focus on what you wana achieve and heck what ppl ard you is saying..
if you JUST want to graduate with a normal diploma,then stick to your comfort zone..
and i noe what i want,and insyallah i can make it.. i made a promise..
a promise to my mum whom i disappoint twice..

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hyperactive @ 9:38 PM

♥ Monday, April 20, 2009

i onli had to survive 1hr of damn boring marketing lecture todae..
and here i am..feeling ooh so tired..

im goin off to bed rite now..
and NE PROJECT can %$&@ %$# seriously..

i encounter something like this in sec sch..
and it's happening again in poly :)


NITEZ PEEPS:)))


i wish i had someone..a fren..just somebody to share my insecurities with..
someone to hear me out sincerely..it's tiring to keep things to yourself..
it's tiring to pretend.. it's tiring to put a smile on your face,
to joke about and act all happy when deep inside, you hurt..

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hyperactive @ 10:09 PM

♥ Tuesday, April 14, 2009

BLISSFUL TUESDAY :)

the shoes i ordered online arrived in the morning..
and the hp company just replaced me wif a new ADAPTOR..
uber uber uber happy:)

ooh ya..HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY HANIF!!!
thanks for being one of the best senior ever...
stay crappy and happy..and cute LOL...

and HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY ZAT!!
woohoo..dah bdak poly sey..LOL.


just as i promised, an update..
a reali reali looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong one..

if long post bore you, don't read ;)
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2nd April 09

bowling..band-ing..birthday bash-ing.. TRIPLE TREAT I'D SAY:)


~ gorgeous haz, hilarious nuruddin and zany me:)

next stop : visit lovelies band peeps over at sec sch..

~ my darling juniors and alumni..
catch up on those fun times..gahhh i miss them:(

last stop: sis's TWENTY-SOMETHING befdae bash..LOL..
you shud get what i mean kenneth -.- heee..



3rd april 09

meet chloe and fatin for NE project over at bugis..
khaizurah din make it..so went shopping after that..


7th april 09

PRSS BAND SYF COMPETITION..



9th april 09

shopping wif FATIN NADHIRAH ISMAIL :)


10th april 09

HAPPY CAMFUGS ANIVERSARY..
buva chloe fatin fitriah khaizurah shirlene liyun..
I LOVE YOU GUYS A LOT:)


help NORA for her dinner and dance event:)

12th april 09

gym session wif sis and her peeps..tiring
im gona aim for 4click next week..insyallah..


13th april 09


NE-project wif fatin:) im craving for KOREAN food..



the feeling of regret:
is wen something doesn go the way you want it to and you wished you hadnt start it in the first place..


that's my definition,wat's urs?

currently reading: glamour by louise bagshawe

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hyperactive @ 1:54 PM

♥ Friday, April 3, 2009

i'll make it snappy..

I.WILL.UPDATE.WHEN.I.GET.NEW.ADAPTOR.FOR.MY.LAPPY.

PROMISE!!!

and..i wont be online for a few days..until next week most probably..
so pls wait for photos to be uploaded kay if i owe you guys one that is:)
sms or cal me if you need anything:)
oh and don give me miss calls.. -.-

im not telling you anything..


~you're blessed with such frens who hurt you a lot..
but you still THANK GOD for that..
i salute you for being strong and do keep up with it..
if i had frens like those, i would have ditched them..
i believe that something good will happen to you..
you may not receive it here but be patient kay..Insyallah..

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hyperactive @ 9:28 PM

♥ Thursday, April 2, 2009

to my most dearest beloved melodramatic sis..




HAPPY __th BIRTHDAY!!
Stay gorgeous, sweet and outgoing..
may ALLAH bless you and keep you in good health..
hopefully your future will be a smooth ride..
insyallah..
don't worry i'll keep praying for your happiness..
and rmb what family is for..hee
quit watever bad habits..ehem i noe kay:)
and stick to those good ones..LOL..
thanks for being a GREAT sis and
I LOVE YOU frm the bottom of my arse ehh i mean heart<33

I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU KAK YAN:)


and i love love boys over flowers..
i love kim bum and lee min ho..


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hyperactive @ 12:47 AM

♥ Wednesday, April 1, 2009

FIRSTLY...
my freaking adaptor is spoilt..and i need to GET A NEW ONE FAST!!
which means..
new adaptor = $55 -.-

SECONDLY..
my hp is goin haywire..so either i get a NEW PHONE or REPAIR IT.
either way..BOTH needs MONEY..

THIRDLY..
i just ordered a new pair of shoes..
NEW SHOES= $31 gone :)

THE POINT IS..
technology is eating up on me and....
I NEED MONEY!!!!


but...
the first time i set my eyes on you... I REALI WANT YOU..
be mine shoes..let me save another 40 decent bucks and you're mine:)

i need clothes..i need shoes..i need bags..i need belts..WHATEVER DEE-.-

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hyperactive @ 10:31 PM