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♥ Wednesday, January 12, 2011

I woke up today with both my eyes swelling terribly..
My head hurts. My heart hurts.
Im not in the right state of mind. and i duno what's gonna happen.
Even if i think it's, i dn want it to happen.
Just tell me that it's just a DREAM. :(

Oh Allah, please guide me through these difficult time of my life.
Show me the path. Forgive me of my wrong doings. Lead me to be someone better.
And help me keep that special someone safe.

Insyallah.

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hyperactive @ 10:21 AM

♥ Friday, August 20, 2010

Time check: 1.00 pm

So here i am waiting for zuhur. and TODAY'S friday :)
i will be going out later to meet my poly mates..
then buke tgt at zam2 maybe?

I've been communicating with Allah a lot lately. He knows how i feel.
sometimes, i just wana be alone..
i wana weep my ass off. im scared :'(
and i duno why im scared.. I need you Allah..

truth is, im lost and i haven found me yet..
gues i've been living in disguise.
trying to please others when i myself aint happy.
when i finally show how i feel, they wont like it..

Oh Allah, give me strength and guide me to the right path..
Make this Ramadhan a bless and meaningful one for me, my family,my loved ones n frens.
Give us courage and accept our ibadah.
Amin.

Insyallah everything will be alright :)

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hyperactive @ 1:01 PM

♥ Tuesday, July 13, 2010

It's the last semester of academic year for me..
Very soon, it be attachment and by then, i shall dump my books aside.
No examinations, no more practicals with my coursemates and no more having to sit in lecture hall for hours to absorb heavy theory stuff.

The sad thing is, this sem is killing me.. Im such a failure and i feel lousy.
PATHETIC.. I just shuck at everything this sem.
I duno what happen to the OLD mardiana who entered Poly a few years back.
I duno what she wants in life anymore..
OMG, i am so lost.. Im falling apart..
I duno..I duno..I duno..I duno..

nvm, you wont understand..
shall cry myself to sleep today.
Hopefully when i wake up tmr, i feel so much better :)

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hyperactive @ 11:39 PM

♥ Wednesday, June 9, 2010

SEE THE DATE TODAY!!!!

yes, it's 9 june..
Time check, 7.18am :)

about 19 years ago, i were still in my mother's womb waiting to be delivered into the world.
and today, I thank Allah that im stil alive. I thank Allah for giving me my family and the people around me.


On my birthday today, i wont ask for anything because i have everything already.
i don reali need a celebration, i don need a big cake, i don need gifts and balloons. i don need flowers. i don need all that.

All i need is ____.

Anyway, i just wana Thank everyone who wished me:) Thank you so much!!
May God bless you people always.
TO my dearest CAMFUGS [buva fatin shir fitriah khaizurah] Thank You for giving me an advance birthday surprise. It was reali sweet of you guys reali. hehe

LASTLY, MY TWIN TURNS A YEAR OLDER TODAY too :)

DEAREST NORHAZWANI HAMDAN,
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO US!! HEHE I LOVE YOU BABE <3


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hyperactive @ 7:18 AM

♥ Sunday, May 30, 2010

im ditching you..

wait i don think im ditching you yet blogger..
but i want you to know, im two timing you :(
sorry..

anyway...
LIFE is okay so far. Alhamdulillah.
I thank Allah for everything and whatever he gives now, is temporary.
So make use of it in a good way and appreciate.

btw, MUM gives me the green light. but i have to prove to her first..
Insyallah, i can achieve that dream of mine :) Amin.

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hyperactive @ 6:10 PM

♥ Monday, April 12, 2010

mum was right...

she said i may have looked firm, strong and fierce on the outside but truth is...

im QUITE weak.. :(


but i know when things aint going right, im never giving up..


LIFE :)

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hyperactive @ 9:59 PM

♥ Friday, April 9, 2010

HOLIDAYS HAVE BEEN A BLAST!!
(which i will update soon if i have the time that is.. )

and it's the best holiday ever! surprisingly, i used it to the fullest..
like what zak said the other day, ' Wahhh kau enjoy giler siak ni holiday.'
ahaha..

not even once did i complain about rotting at home.. :D
that's an accomplishment..
coz i noe that after year 3 sem1, i will be having a week of holiday
before attachment. -.-"
PATHETIC RIGHT?

you guys take care aite..

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hyperactive @ 12:31 PM